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Stepping through another Crossroad

So I'm back in Tupelo, only for about a week or so more. Things have been okay, it's good to be back to see all my old friends and some I haven't even seen in years. Things have begun to patch themselves back up, Amanda isn't mad at me, and my relationship with Caleb is at a great place at the moment.

As far as going back to North Carolina, I'm excited to get back to the river, but there are a few people that I could do without seeing once I get back.

My life keeps changing, I was at a major crossroads in my life just a year ago, and now once again I've come to another crossroad. I know the direction that I'm going, I know where I'm going but my only thing is that as I look down the path that I have chosen I wonder who will be on that path with me. I hope to never lose the friends I have now, I know that it is seldom that people stay in touch, and that's life.

But I will always treasure the friends and the love they have given. I won't forget anyone in Tupelo and I won't forget anyone in North Carolina each and everyone you have an impression in my heart. And will always a special place there.

Caleb I will always love, no matter how hard I try to go on my heart keeps bringing me back, even when I'm not exactly sure what is going on. I have faith in my heart and in my love, the last few days have taught me that. I also know our love will never die, it is something pure and beautiful that can't be extinguished with time or distance. I was pretty insecure about it, but I know what I have to do and I know what he has to do. We just have to work for it. I will have a future with him, I'm sure of it. There is no logic behind it besides the fact that I know we can make it, but my heart also tells me we will.

So it looks as though I have a long road stretching ahead of me, I'll be going into the Airforce soon, and although I won't be going to war, I will still be serving my country. I just hope Bush doesn't keep up with all this nonsense about reducing the disability given to soliders injured in war. That seems pretty stupid and ridiculous to me. They go and serve, get injured and then the government says, "Opps, sorry! You're screwed."

It isn't that I face that situation, but I don't see justice in this. Someone please speed life up two years so Bush will be gone for good. I'm not sure if there are any Bush enthusiast left. Regan was more popular than Bush! Oh and last I heard Bush is pushing his party to promote his brother for president. (God help us all)

So other than that, everything is good. 

I love you Neil, and sorry about what has happened. Give me a call and we'll hang out soon. I'm suppose to hang out with Robert V. this afternoon and we're going to go to someone's house. (The guy that was wearing the pinstrip shirt with the revolver on it, sorry but I just can't remember his name) I remember AJ and Keta were there ( I just met Keta yesterday) and we played Soul Calibur II, good fun! And I got to see Jon and Forest, although Forest didn't say anything to me.

And for my dear friend Mike,

You will always be in our hearts and your spirit stays with us all. You'll never be forgotten, for we live in the love that you have shared with us; you are a part of us all. 

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Another day in the Gorge

work is kinda busy today. so I've joined fictionpress.com, kinda got tired of writing fanfiction and now I can post my own stories and poems and all youza peeps that would like to read them can! Inspired by Prestie-poo, who has plenty of very good stories on fictionpress, hopefully I'll get a few readers, and I'll be able to post occasionally.

Tommy and I went hiking through wesser creek today, it was nice, the water was cold and there was a little ice, but the sun is shining and it's beautiful in the forest today. He told me today, "If I could I would live this moment for the rest of my life, just so it would never change, I'd always have you by my side." It was really sweet!

I'd like to go hike there again tomorrow. I never feel so free as when I'm in the forest, there are no secrets for me to keep from the forest, no social expectations to uphold, when I'm there I'm just another creature. That exists in harmony, no matter how fleeting the moment, the moment is still mine.

I've decided that my life would be alot less dramatic if I'd never met Chobez.

Okay the kid is a dear friend (whom I disliked at first because he is socially retarded and doesn't always know when to "shut the fuck up", but I love him all the same). Not only has he relied heavily on me and Tommy for rides here and there and everywhere. We've drung him off the floor covered in his own vomit, driven 13 hours to pick his abandoned-ass up, and generally bailed his ass out whenever we could actually help him. But Valentine's Day took the cake, but it's a semi-long detailed story.

Chobez works at Pizza Hut, he is a cook, and as of two weeks ago he is the only cook. (The other two quit right before the Super Bowl) Well Chobez decided to take Ginsing for some good-ole-fashioned pill-induced-energy, and took two horse-pills at 4:30 and then proceeded to take 3 Blackjax pills at 5:00. Well after he got FIERD me and Tommy got back from Sylva and then sat for over two hours in the emergency room while they ran about three IV's through him. When he arrived at his hospital his heartrate was at 145, so he could have very well died, but miracously didn't. I'm starting to see a pattern.....hmmmm.....

I love that Tommy works at River's End Restaurant because it just means I get free food, even when the Manager is there I get free food. Ha! I beat you system!

Finally sucked it up and beat Prince of Persia: Sands of Time, now if I can only get the next two and beat them. But I'm now playing Onimusha 3 which is a kick-ass game, the first two were okay, but I definately like this one. And I'm still playing DDR, very seldomly, in fact I tried to beat Tusgaru on heavy the other day (which is one that I actually have alot of fun playing on heavy) and I FAILED. I couldn't believe it, so time to renew on my mad DDR skills.

And I've gotten a new nick-name at the bar "Poolshark". And I guess you all know why. But seriously, I really love kicking a guys ass at pool, because they're all "Macho" and "I'm a guy so I can definately play pool better than a girl" sort of attitude. My attitude, "Hey buddy! I just won and you still have six balls left on the table, get it together!) (True story: occured last night at the bar next door)

Well other than that I think everything is going okay. I think things are finally starting to settle down back home in Tupelo with my parents and my brother and all I can say is , "Thank God" and "Jake better keep his shit together!"

Before I go, some words of wisdom, from the fantastical, magical, jackable:

Primus: Wynona's Big Brown Beaver

Wynona’s got herself a big brown beaver
And she shows it off to all her friends.
One day, you know, that beaver tried to leave her,
So she caged him up with cyclone fence.
Along came lou with the old baboon
And said recognize that smell?
Smells like seven layers,
That beaver eats taco bell.
Now rex he was a texan out of new orleans
And he travelled with the carnival shows.
He ran bumper cars, sucked cheap cigars
And he candied up his nose.
He got wind of the big brown beaver
So he though he’d take himself a peek,
But the beaver was quick
And grabbed him by the kiwis.
Now he ain’t pissed for a week.
(and a half!)
Now wynona took her big brown beaver,
And she stuck him up in the air.
Said I sure do love this big brown beaver
And I wish I did have a pair.
Now the beaver onces slept for seven days
And it gave us all an awful fright.
So I tickled his chin and I gave him a pinch
And the bastard tried to bite me.
Wynona loved her big brown beaver
And she stroked him all the time.
She pricked her finger one day and it
Occurred to her she might have a porcupine.